In a land of lost souls , what are we all really looking for. Trying to make sense of this madness. Driving each other crazy in the process. Achieving nothing in the end. No one comes out victorious, yet each claims victory. Who is at loss in this warfare. The one in actual combat, or the innocent bystander. Eyes wide open, mouth tight shut, soul searching desperately. Reach out to the ones who can feel with their minds, see with their hearts , laugh with their eyes and cry with their smiles. There is no shame in that. What is life if you haven’ t stared at the moon , marveled at the stars, danced in the rain, or worked till midnight. Your soul will leave you eventually. Let it find , what it seeks. Let it grow. Let it go.
Silence is one of the most misunderstood concept by human race. It is often taken as a sign of weakness by someone who is used to being on the opposite end of the spectrum. Observe the calm ocean , the steady trees , the silent breeze. They can all be a source of comfort and joy, if you let them be. But no, human nature is helpless on the hands of its ego. Some of them just have to let their own misery get the better of them and make others around them unhappy as well. What kind of sadistic satisfaction one gets out it is beyond comprehension. The Ocean can only stay calm for so long. The breeze will finally begin to pick up speed. The storm will finally rise, and the one they thought was weak , was the strongest one alive.
Why do we feel obligated to be in constant comparison with others. Is this life a game. Were we brought on this earth to see who will make it to the finish line first. Well that is ironic because no one wants to die. But every person is an individual. My happiness should not depend on how well or not someone else is doing and vice versa.
It is so sad to see people destroying their lives over comparison. It is beyond my comprehension that how can someone’s success or failure have so much power over anyone else. Is it because people are scared to admit their own insecurities and failures? If they could not be successful in what they wanted to achieve, then they cannot see someone else climbing that ladder as well? But the other person has nothing to do with your insecurities. Let them be. Don’t pull them down with you. Instead focus on yourself. What can you do for yourself that can bring you peace in this difficult time. Instead of projecting your negativity on people around you, divert that energy into improving your self awareness. Do not shove the skeletons back in the closet again. They will keep coming back any chance that they get. They are always sitting there , ready to pounce at your first signal. Face them, talk about them, talk to them. Tell them they do not have any place in your life. The damage they have done to make you the insecure person you are is enough. You deserve to be happy now. Happy for yourself and for everyone around you.
And for you my friend who is on the rise, you will have to learn to rise up above all the noise, the chatter, the gossip. If you have paid your dues, then don’t let anyone hold you back. You cannot let someone’s negativity overshadow you . What they say to bring you down, has nothing to do with you and everything to do with them. Let them sort out their own issues. You focus on your goals and what you want to achieve in life. Do what makes you happy. But never build your happiness on the expense of others. Because then you will be doing the same, and the cycle will continue.
Our time on this Earth is limited . None of us is getting out of here alive. So take care of each other. Be happy for one another. Deal with your own issues. Don’t victimize someone just because you are not able to handle your own self. Respect yourself enough to be able to respect each and everyone around around you.
Ego. A three letter word that can drive people to push harder and break boundaries. But more often it is of the another person. Feeding this insatiable monster will only lead you to lose your victim count. You will tread and trample on anything and everything in your way, feelings, emotions, lives.
So your Ego can wait. It can wait for as long as it takes. Because my sanity cannot. You cannot feed off of my livelihood anymore. Kick your Ego to the curb, not my feelings. Trample on this monster, not my emotions. The dark corridors of your mind are not mine to light anymore. The tiny spark i have left is enough to keep me alive. You will watch this spark come to life. Blinded by the light, you will see how beautiful the other side is. My sanity calls . I have to go. You can follow my spark if you want, or light your own.
From the day you are born to the day you die , you can spend your entire life without knowing the reason of your existence. And for the ones with sensitive souls who feel everything on a deeper level it can be torture. Questions like why am i here? what is my purpose? That little voice is always whispering inside. There has to be more to life than routine. No matter how much love and gratitude you show there is always room for more. You can either spend your entire life looking for that purpose or you can start believing in yourself and let that purpose find you. The qualities that the world has been making you believe as your weaknesses are actually your greatest strengths. Kindness, Empathy, Mindfulness, these are your greatest treasures. Hold on to them with all your might. Let “PURPOSE” look for someone as strong as you. It is the strong ones like you who give unconditionally. This world needs more people like you to thrive. And that could just be your purpose.
By the time you realize this, you might have been battered, torn, abused , neglected, shattered or broken into a million pieces. Why does it have to take all that to come to this realization. Why do we, as human beings look at another to validate our core existence. Is it lack of confidence, low self-esteem, fear of failure, or all of the above. But is it that important to be accepted by another, that you start to question your own existence. Does your happiness solely depends on how another will accept or reject you. It is a vicious cycle. A never-ending rabbit hole of shame, self-pity and guilt and a multitude of other emotions. But once the realization hits home, that you are more than a validation ticket for someone else, then that their time is up. Then there is no room for excuse. Time to break the chains of negative thought process that had you pinned down and paralyzed. Think of all the positive clichés in the world, repeat them in your mind. Memorize them . Because once you realize your true potential, there is no turning back. Because now it is is time to
KaraK SouL 